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I'm so bad at keeping this blog. Actually I've been so bad with my eating that I couldn't blog.

I've been letting my emotions get to me and control me. I let the words and actions of others dictate my emotions. NOT GOOD. I am not going to let that happen anymore. I deserve to be happy and healthy. I deserve to eat good food. I will not use food to shove my emotions to a place where I can not feel them. I use food to numb myself so that I don't have to feel the pain of what is going on in my life.

Today I will stop the vicious cycle that has recently caused me to regain weight that I had released over a year ago. I am on a path of healthy eating and positive emotions. I will not let what people say or do effect me in a negative way.

I bought 2 of Natalia Rose's books, Life Force Energy and The Raw Detox Diet. Today I am on the right path.

Today's food:
Green lemonade
Huge green salad with peppers tomatoes and carrots
Strawberries
Carrot, beet, ginger apple juice

I didn't eat dinner because I didn't feel hungry. I am feeling a little hunger now so I am going to have some veggies while I prep my juice ingredients for tomorrow.

Blech. Feeling crappy tonight. I felt good all day except my tummy was a little achy late this morning. I was headed to the gym and turned around to come home because I felt nauseas. I had tea and water today then when I got home I decided I should have juice. I think that is what made me sick. I tried to water it down a bit but I'm afraid to have any.

I think tonight I will take it easy. I really wanted to go to the gym but I'll just take tonight off and go for the next few days.

Total weight loss since January 1 is 7.6 lbs. Not too bad. I can feel the difference in my body. Today I really felt it in my legs.

Another pound down. This morning when I woke up I didn't feel lighter but the scale said so.

Tea and water again. I am going to try to have juices tomorrow, I just didn't feel like making them and I wasn't hungry - not even for my delicious tomato juice.

Worked out tonight, Zumba class then a Butts and Gutts class. Loved the 2nd class. She really kicked my ass. I had to come home and take a hot bath because I know I am going to be sore in the morning. It's worth it, I want to work hard so I can really see results. I want to see muscle definition.

So tired. Need sleep. Going to try to stay up and watch the new Real World but don't know if I'll be able to hang.

I am down a total of 5.8 lbs in the last 6 days.

Tonight I did 25 min on the treadmill and some strength training.

I drank tea, 2+ litres of water and tomato, celery, parsley cucumber juice with spices. I love my spicy concoction.

I can see some fat loss in my inner thighs today. It's so weird to see where the fat leaves from. I am hoping for a bigger loss tomorrow but I will not be upset because any loss is good I am just impatient and want it all off now.

I have not been hungry at all which is quiet amazing to me. I cooked a steak for my son tonight with sauteed onions. The steak I could care less about since I haven't been eating meat for a while. The onions smelled really good but I didn't want them at all. It's so weird but also very liberating to have these feelings. I also cooked curried chicken the other night and same thing, no cravings and didnt want it at all.

I feel enlightened today, even with all of the crap I am going through I am not letting it bother me like it used to. The old me would be depressed, crying and eating everything in sight but the new me is going to let this situation figure itself out. I love the new me.

Tea and water today and yesterday.

I don't even feel hungry. The hunger passes after a few days. I have thought about certain foods but I am not craving them. I also cooked for my son but didn't even want to taste it. Saw some food commercials and thought about how gross fast food is. YUK.

48 min on the treadmill - 2.5 mi a few intervals of running for 1 min. at a time but didn't want to over do it because I was feeling a little lightheaded and didn't work out yesterday. Tomorrow is Zumba class! Love that class.

Tummy feels smaller and a little tighter. My whole body feels lighter. Couldn't weigh myself this morning because I was on ACK. Weigh in tomorrow. So excited, will not get discouraged by a # on the scale though because I feel good. NO BM again and very little of anything else (butt pee, lol).

Stressful weekend. Very emotional, cried a lot. This morning I woke up with a plan. I will not let anyone let me feel that way again.

Tomorrow is the start of a great year according to my horroscope. I'm happy. This is going to be a great year.

The Butt Pees

No BM but I've had the Butt Pees today. Not all day just a couple of times this morning.

Today I had lots of tea and for dinner I had green juice
celery
2 roma tomatoes
cilantro
romaine
with spices as last night's spicy tomato juice. I love the flavors of this juice.

I didn't work out because my back has been hurting since last night. I think I over did it at the gym. Tonight I am just resting.

I am down one lb. from yesterday. I'm impatient and wanted a 3 lb loss but 1 lb is great. I like to weight myself every day. I do not obsess over the scale I just like to see progress and if there is no loss then I know to cut back (this is when I am eating, not fasting because while fasting I know I will loose).

This weekend will probably be Master Cleanse or water because I won' t have my juicer with me, at least not on Saturday. I should be back on Sunday night.

I am not hungry and I was in a pretty good mood today. Work was sooo busy but my day went well.

New Year, New Me

I have neglected this blog for long enough. I am ready to start again. I am working on myself this year. It's all about me.

I have maintained my weight loss but fell off the raw wagon a few times. I am back on with a vengence now.

I am juicing right now. My goal is one month. After that I may go longer I'll have to decide what my body wants at that time. I have heard that you should not fast mainly for weight loss but that is my reason for fasting. This year I will get to my ideal body weight. I think around 14o.

Today's juice
Super Fat burning
1 grapefruit
1 lemon
cranberries
water

Tomato
1 tomato
3 roma tomatoes
cilantro
celery
cumin, cayenne, salt, garlic

Some say not to use salt on a fast but this is my fast and I can do it however I want.
I also had lots of water.

I went to the gym
11 min stair master
15 min eliptical
35 min strength training
45 min treadmill with intervals of running
I AM A RUNNER!! I've been wantin to run for a few weeks now but I've been scared of a few things. 1. Running in public - who really wants to see that? I was thinking I was too fat to run but I don't care what anyone thinks I am doing this for me. 2. I was scared I was going to fall and go flying off the treadmill. Guess what? I didn't! I just started slow - 4.5 mph. not too bad. A few times I cranked it up to 5.2. Ha. Felt really good. I did one minute of running and 3 or 4 minutes of walking 3.0 for 20 min then I walked at 3.0 for the rest of the time. Next time I will try for one minute and 15 seconds or so and work up from there. I was thinking I should do a 5K. OK, won't push it but it's something to work for.

Thats it for now.

Has it been that long since I've blogged?

Where has time gone? I've been really busy lately. Ok, enough of that, on to better things.

Have you joined RawFu yet? You must check out this community. Bunny Berry is so freakin' cool. I wonder if she knows that I'm her biggest fan. So freaking adorable, and funny!!! Check out her blog too.

I have some lentils and adzuki beans sprouting and I am trying again on broccoli sprouts. I will not give up!!

I've been doing well staying raw. I'm loving my green smoothies and I've been eating less nuts. I can't totally cut them out yet, I love them so much. I've just got to wean myself off a little at a time. I've been faithfully going to the gym also.

Today's food:
GS - banana, pear, spinach, chia This was breakfast and dinner.

Watermelon

Pink Lady apple (yum)

Green salad with creamy delicious cashew dressing (not too much although I wanted to lick the plate!)

2 chocolate truffles (Jo's recipe - DiscoverRaw)

lots of water

msm bee pollen spirulina

Have a great day!

My last attempt at sprouting went very wrong. They were smelly. I'm new to this so I'm not sure if it's the weather or if I didn't drain them enough?? I'm not giving up though, I am determined to make this work. This time I am sprouting my broccoli and chia on damp papertowels. I read about this somewhere on the web. After one day they already have little tails. Hope this works better that the sprouting jar. I also have some sunflower seeds sprouting, can't wait to eat those.

For dinner I had kale salad. I never tire of it. I made spicy avo dressing. My son loved it too. Somehow I managed to save some for lunch tomorrow. I love that my kids eat pretty healthy. I don't push raw on them but the do eat veggies and whenever I have a big bowl of salad they always want some too. They drink lots of smoothies but I'd like to start sneaking greens into them.

Today's food:

Strawberry, blueberry and pineapple smoothie with a scoop of Trader Joe's Very Green

Kale Salad

Other: MSM, Bee Pollen, Omega 3 6 9, Spirulina, Coconut Oil

Before Raw

This is me and my daughter in 2006. I used to say I just had a baby and havent' lost the weight yet . Guess that doesn't work anymore when your baby is a teenager..

These are my boys. I love this pic. Even thought I was fat I thought I looked pretty good. Note to self, try as you might you cant' hide your fat behind your kids even when you pose a little bit sideways.

UGH! Fat. This is right before I went raw. I really don't want people to see this but once I looked at it I saw how far I've come. I am not going back here.

Ok, this me now. I have lost over 50 lbs so far. I still have a way to go but I know that raw is the way to go. I feel so healthy on raw. Thank you so much Jo from DiscoverRaw for getting me back on track! Check out her blog, she is a raw food coach and she's just adorable AND an inspiration. Make sure to check out her before and after pics and her Raw On A Shoestring Challenge.

Long time, no post.

I am back from vacation. Why does vacation fly by and work days drag... ??? I had a great time with my family and friends. It was fun to see my mother again, she's quite entertaining.

I've done well staying raw. Loving my smoothies every morning and I just bought some Maca and Hemp Seeds to add to them. I also bought some milk thistle seeds. I think I can just grind them and put them in a smoothie but I'll have to research that. I only bought a small amount but I hear they are good for cleansing the liver and I still have a touch of psoriasis but it is so much better because of the coconut oil.

I'm not sure if it's the weather or something else but I haven't been very hungry lately. I did also notice that at the gym I had so much energy today. I haven't been working out for about 2 weeks and have been losing weight. Hmmm... But I love working out and I'll have to see what happens now that I am working out again.

Off to make my lunch for tomorrow and watch some junky reality tv.

Today's food:

Smoothie
Blueberry, banana, chia seeds, maca, hemp seeds, water.
(soaked chia seeds in water to make a gel)

Lettuce wraps
Romaine leaves, watercress, sprouts, organic locally grown tomatoes, cucumber
dressing - zucchini, tahini, garlic, scallion, cumin, coriander, sea salt, lemon juice, water

Supplements/Other
1T Coconut Oil
spirulina, Omega 3 6 9, bee pollen, msm
water, water, water

I heart coconut oil

I've been reading up on the benefits of coconut oil. I am addicted to the stuff. I've used it on my skin at night after a bath and I wake up soooo soft! I put some in my hair and I've eaten it. It does seem to supress my appetite as I've not been so hungry the last few days. I've also lost a few pounds. YAY! That freakin scale has been stuck on fat for about 2 months.

My broccoli sprouts are starting to sprout a little. I can't wait to eat them. I love love love broccoli sprouts. I want to sprout some chia seeds next.

I bought a dehydrator. It's just a Nesco that I got at Wal-mart but if I want to stay raw I really feel I need to make some dehydrated crackers and things. Last night I made sweet potato chips and tonight I made some flax crackers. They are drying right now. The sweet potatoes were good but I need to add a little more salt. I want to dehydrate some apples and make apple chips to go on that yummy fuji apple salad I miss so much from Panera. Of course it won't have chicken or feta so I have to work out a recipe. I made the dressing last year and it was so good.

Andre called the other day and told me that Jamal is eating bananas. He loves organic bananas. I thought it was great that he only wants to feed the baby organic. Hmmm, am I rubbing off on my kid? I guess they were listening all this time.

Off to the gym. Cardio only today since I worked upper, lower and abs yesterday.

New Toys!!!

Ok, not really toys but today I bought broccoli sprout seeds and chia seeds! I am so excited. I'll soak the broccoli seeds tonight and I'll have sprouts in about 3 or 4 days. I also bought a sprouter. It's just a jar with a mesh lid which I could have made myself but I wanted the one at the store.

I'm going to to make tapioca pudding from the chia seeds. Tomorrow I'll add some to my smoothie and see how that works out. It's supposed to keep you pretty full and give you lots of energy.

Tonight I am making Emerald Kale Salad from the RFT thread. I love kale salad but I usually do mine with an avocado dressing but this one should be just as yummy.

Almost forgot, I also bought some hijiki and wakame from the Asian market down the street from the health food store I went to. Good Health Natural Foods in Quincy, MA is the best. I will be going there again for sure. The staff was really helpful too.

Ok, Gotta go play with my "new toys"

This morning I made my green smoothie. It wasn't my favorite. It was papaya, strawberry, orange and kale. I didn't like the taste so I added a banana. Still not great but I drank it. Lunch was better, salad with the dressing I made last night. I had an apple for a snack and for dinner I made a yummy kale salad with red peppers, tomato, onion and a dressing I whipped up from pine nuts, cumin, coriander and a dash of cayenne. It was good and I still have some for tomorrow's lunch. I also had some raw fudge that I made the other day.

I feel really good because I did not have my morning coffee or chai tea. Even though it's a hot day I still love my hot coffee. I did think about coffee and the taste and how it is warm and yummy but I resisted and made it through the whole day without it. I can't say I didn't miss it but I know it will only get easier from here.

My lentil sprouts are sprouting a little bit. I only started soaking them last night. I wonder if it's because it's been so hot here? Not sure but I can't wait to eat them.

Fresh Start

So I had my coaching session tonight. I learned a lot about myself. Jo is wonderful, so knowledgeable. She gave me some wonderful tips and I am motivated to get on the ball and do what I have to do to stay raw and release the rest of this weight.

Tomorrow I am not having my cup of coffee. I stopped drinking coffee when I first went raw so It shouldn't be too hard. I had one cup one day and that was it, I slowly added back my daily habit. I also have to stop drinking chai tea with soy milk. I love that more than coffee bug I have lots of different green teas. I'll start making them iced as it's been so hot lately.

I have my lunch ready for tomorrow. I have a big veggie salad and some yummy dressing I made tonight from cashews, cumin, tahini and garlic. I also have some fruit and in a few I will get my green smoothie together for the morning. I am going to put it all in the Magic Bullet and just blend it in the morning.

I feel so motivated right now! I can't wait to start the day tomorrow.

Lucky Me!

I was chosen by Jo at DiscoverRaw.com for the free coaching sessions. I can't tell you how excited I am and how much I need this. I am commited to being high raw and I know this will get me back on track.

If you have not read Jo's blog I recommend you do it now! She is currently doing a "Raw on a shoestring" challenge. I think it's something we should all try at some point. Everyone thinks eating healthy is expensive but it really doesnt' have to be.

I will be tracking my progress here to keep myself accountable. Stay tuned...